The past few days have not been good for me food wise. I’m starting a new job next week and instead of being happy and excited, I’m nauseous and freaking out. Most f the day I have no appetite and either end up not eating because I can’t stomach anything or what little I have eaten I’ll throw up ( not on purpose) because I just can’t stomach if. My nerves are shot. It hasn’t been this bad since the summer I dropped a shot ton of weight then but it wasn’t healthy, and it was too fast. I know it wasn’t good for me but I’d be lying if I didn’t acknowledge that There was a little part of me that was kinda happy about it. However I ended up gaining most of it back one I gave myself permission to calm the fuck down. So yeah I’m back to that nonsense now, the added problem is that lately I’ll smoke a bowl to give me back my appetite but the n I end up over eating and still feeling like shit. I don’t understand how easy it is for some people to discipline themselves when it comes to diet and then for people like me it’s a constant source of failure.
its been a VERY long time since I posted anything on here, truth be told I kinda forgot about it. needless to say i have not progressed much in my journey to healthier eating and weight loss. i could go through all the excuses but there’s no point. what matters is that i’m ready to try this again, to take it a more seriously.
it’s not about looking good, no really, I mean that. Yes I’m on the heavier side but I think I’m pretty cute. this is about health and over all well being. i know that the majority of what i’m consuming ( as with most americans) is slowly poisoning and killing me. i know that sounds a bit melodramatic but i believe it to be too. it didn’t really sink in until i had a conversation with a friend of mine, at one point she said ” food is medicine or it’s poison, you have to decide what you want it to be.” and i thought ‘holy shit she’s right.’
so i’m gonna give it a go again, and we’ll see what happens.
Farmer’s Market season has started! This means it’ll be a lot easier and cheaper to feed myself well :) Last night I made tofu wraps with homemade peanut sauce and homemade beet chips on the side. Sooooooo goooood. What are some of your favorite healthy dishes?
This may not sound like an important thing, but I have not willingly worn a dress since high school. My experience with dresses have always been bad ones. Anytime I would wear one to school the only responses I would get were ” What the fuck l are you so dressed up for?” throw in a few “fat” and…
I posted this on my main tumblr, but thought it was fitting for this page too.
My mom called me to tell me to talk about this on the ole blog, but it looks like TDW beat me to it!
Disturbing Trend of the Day: In a last-gasp attempt to fit into the THE DRESS, desperate brides-to-be in the U.S. (like Jessica Schnaider, pictured) can now have a feeding tube inserted into their nose that provides a drip of liquid protein and fat (with no carbohydrates) through the esophagus into the stomach. The $1,500, 10-day treatment is effective: The tube delivers just 800 calories a day, and generally results in the loss of at least 10 percent of body weight — and perfect wedding pictures. But… ew?
I really really REALLY hope this isn’t true, no dress or man is worth doing that to yourself.
and, since I am a creature of habit, I have been doing nothing but self medicating with snacks and food that’s got no business being in my body. It also means that I didn’t walk after work because at the end of the day I was just too exhausted to do anything other than shoving food in my mouth. Yay.
I’m gonna avoid the scale for a week and get back on track.
Got on the scale this morning, I am only three pounds away from my first goal weight. So far I have lost seventeen pounds in two months. I don’t know if that’s a good pace or not, but I feel like it’s coming off slowly and that’s what I want. It’s aggravating at times, and I frequently contemplate “cheating” ( purging), but I know doing that will only open the door to more complicated and dangerous problems. It took me several years to reach this weight, it’s going to take some time to come off. Still, I think I’m doing pretty well and I know the walking is paying off. I
I shared with you a few days ago that I decided to skip out on my ride home in an attempt to force myself to get some exercise. It’s about a three mile walk, Monday and Tuesday, it took me exactly one hour to walk it, today it took me 45 minutes and my legs are THROBBING, but I love it! As long as the weather is decent I’m going to keep walking and if I can survive doing it in the summer heat I will too. I’m looking forward to seeing my progress, my ultimate goal being that I get to buy a new wardrobe in a “normal” clothing store just in time for my vacation in July. Wish me luck!
I love this. I think walking is the most underrated form of physical activity, and this post makes me want to commit to doing it as often as I can.
Earlier today, I went for a walk.
It wasn’t a very long walk.
I didn’t set any records or break any personal bests.
I can’t brag to others about how far I walked or how many calories I “burned”.
I didn’t finish out of breath and barely even broke a sweat.
All I did was go outside, listen to some music, and walk.
And it was amazing!
My whole life I thought walking was for dogs, babies, and old people. I overlooked walking as a form of exercise and thought that I was above it. Walking was for people who were too physically or mentally weak to run fast or lift heavy.
At least that’s what I thought.
Then, at the end of last year, I spent three months in Europe without a car. I was forced to walk everywhere, and walking became a way of life for me. At that point, I still didn’t consider walking a very effective form of exercise, but I started to notice how much I enjoyed the basic activity of just walking.
I noticed that no matter how short or long I walked, I almost always returned home feeling better than when I had left. Walking seemed to improve my mood and my thinking. It helped me come up with ideas for articles I wanted to write, and it helped me put problems or issues I was having into perspective. It seemed to improve my digestion and made me feel better after big meals. It gave me quality time with my girlfriend, and quality time with myself. I even felt like I could get away with an extra dessert or cheat meal without feeling the weight gain and sluggishness the next day.
I was amazed to feel all these positive benefits from something as simple as walking, something I had disregarded for most of my life.
But maybe all this walking business was just in my head. Could I really be experiencing all of these positive outcomes or was it just a placebo effect?
Well, it turns out that there might actually be some science behind this walking phenomenon. Study after study has shown the incredible benefits of walking. Here are just a few examples:
These all sound like good things to me!
Based on my personal experience and the studies I found, it seems pretty clear to me that walking is a Superhuman activity. How many things in life are so easy (and free) to do, have so many positive benefits, and almost no negative side effects?
I think walking stands alone in this regard.
Which makes me wonder….if walking is so great, why did I spend most of my life avoiding it?
I think the biggest reason that I overlooked walking for so long is because common sense and conventional wisdom convinced me that the goal of exercise is to burn calories. If I could burn 100 calories from walking for 30 minutes, then I could double or triple that by jogging or lifting weights for that same amount of time. If some is good, then more must be better.
But as I have researched and experimented with different diets and exercise programs in my own life, it has become clear that there is more to this simplified model then just calories-in versus calories-out. Activities like walking, sleeping, and spending time outside don’t work because they burn more calories, they work because they improve the function and hormonal output of your entire body. Weight loss just happens to be a pretty nice side effect of a properly functioning body.
Sometimes the greatest benefits can be had from the simplest activities. Don’t make the same mistakes and assumptions that I did. Make walking an important part of your life and I guarantee you will feel better.
I recently started skipping out on my ride home from work in order to force myself to walk three miles a day, so far so good :)
As I’ve said before, I know that if I don’t start incorporating exercise in my daily routine the weight is never going to come off. So yesterday, before going back to work for a staff meeting, I gave myself an 8 minute cardio workout. I know it’s not a decent amount of time for a workout but even if I had the time there’s no way I could make it through fifteen minutes or more, at least not yet. And I figure eight minutes is better than no minutes, so at least it’s a start. Today I also decided to decline the ride home and walked instead. It was 2.9 miles, it took me an hour and I broke a sweat. I got home two hours ago and my legs are still throbbing. I think I may have to start walking home more often.